God is more powerful than anything Kelly. I had lymph nodes light up with very high metabolic numbers on my pet scan. The doctors biopsied the area twice, once with a fine needle biopsy and then with a neck dissection where they removed 4 nodes. All the pathologies came back negative. They did not find cancer when by all accounts according to me ENT, they should have. I believe God took the cancer out of them. After meeting with my MO prior to those procedures, he was quite grim. Told me "we cannot get rid of those so well". As I left the parking lot in my car, I was very scared. And then I heard the voice of God say two words in my mind. "Trust me".

Kelly this is the only time I have ever made such a claim and indeed the only time I have ever heard that voice. It was so very different from my normal thoughts. It felt... foreign. Hard to explain but I want you to know that I believe it was God. From that moment on I was no longer afraid. I was literally shaking in my boots one second and completely calm the next.

I don't know what to tell you to do. But I know what I do. I fall to my knees and I pray. I surrender all that I am to God so that I am empty and at peace. I pass the buck and take the present moment for the gift it is. God loves you Kelly, he really does. And no matter what is going to happen God will not forsake you. He will be with you every single second, holding your hand and leading you toward the future he has designed for you.

All my prayers are with you