OMG!!!! I feel so bad for you and J. I cannot believe the stuff I am finding out. I am not stupid but I have never had to deal with any medical stuff before and really didn;t pay attention. I haer things about the drugs companies (especially cancer) and pay offs etc. I am finding so much stuff that blows my mind. Actually, the insider trading deal that Martha Stewart went to prison for insider trading was stocks that owned Erbitux!!! The scientist that invented Erbitux discovered the government was going to issue a negative report so he called his daughter to sell the stocks. She told Martha Stewart. Everyone lied but they finally admitted it. I always thought it was harsh but I did not understand. But then, who is the government was paid off to tell him about the report??? I am so sorry for what you are going through...Laura