Hi Bonnie, Thank you. smile

I think it was more for my mental survival that I figured out what I had to do. It's a nice place to visit even if we can't stay there permanently! So, I'm for visiting it whenever necessary. Remember to be kind to yourself. John appreciates you--that's huge. It means a great deal and you deserve it.

You are right, being a CG is a cruel fate. All the things you described are so familiar to me. You describe being a CG so completely--down to the guilt about feeling down. I hope you have chimed in about your experiences on the threads about caregivers that were on the forum recently. Your insights really capture it so well.

I'm finally understanding the depth of why a CG becomes a co-survivor. It not only changes the patient's life forever, it changes our's as well. I hope if/when I'm called back into active duty, I'll be as good at it as you and all the wonderful caregivers here on the OCF forum.

Love ya!

Sandy

Ex-spouse MISDIAGNOSED with SCC-HN IVa 12/10. Tonsils out 1/11. 4 teeth out 2/11. TX Erbitux x2, IMRT x2 2/11. 2nd opinion-benign BCC-NOT CANCER 3/11. TX stopped 3/11. New doctors 4/11. ENT agrees with 2nd opinion 5/11. ENT scoped him-all clear 7/11. Ordered MRI anyway. MRI 8/22/11 Result-all clear.