thanks for the reply kate. in the beginning i refused to consider surgery. im still not happy about it. the ent mo and ro did not really pressure me into it but after some hard thinking i decided to see the sugeon and hear what he had to say.
also did some study on recurrence with rad and chemo alone. odds of a cure were not in my favor. what it came down to was why waste time with rad and chemo when surgery would likely have to be done in the future anyway.
i want it out and i want it out now. this has gone on too long (over a year since i thought something wasnt right).
get it done and over and go from there.