4Real: You have already proven how strong you are by being your wife's caregiver. Pancreatic Cancer is a horrible disease, but you know that already. I am sure that your wife would want you to attack this with everything you've got and although she might not be with you physically, she will be the angel on your shoulder to see you thru this..... and your are being proactive so that's good. I am praying for you that this is not the big C...... could be many other things, you just need to find out to be sure. Either way you have found your way to best forum you could be in. These people are wonderful and have helped me a lot... I've only just begun the fight. I wish you the best... never give up.