Even if I wanted to, yuck, I could never swallow that stuff because IMO it lacked the part of the mucous that was liquid enough to mix with it to make it swallowable. Even 5 years out I still manufacture a very small amount of that stuff all throughout the day (strangely not at night) and I still "cough" it up and out.

As far as the rest of your questions....just give yourself time, you know "time heals all wounds"..... You just may be coming out of the tunnel which is when your recovery just begins and it may very well take all of 2 years for you to get to the point where you won't recover anymore and no one here can accurately tell you how you will recover so calm down and be patient and go with the flow for the next month or so and I'll bet looking back you will see some positive changes from today.

David

Age 58 at Dx, HPV16+ SCC, Stage IV BOT+2 nodes, non smoker, casual drinker, exercise nut, Cisplatin x 3 & concurrent IMRT x 35,(70 Gy), no surgery, no Peg, Tx at Moffitt over Aug 06. Jun 07, back to riding my bike 100 miles a wk. Now doing 12 Spin classes and 60 outdoor miles per wk. Nov 13 completed Hilly Century ride for Cancer, 104 miles, 1st Place in my age group. Apr 2014 & 15, Spun for 9 straight hrs to raise $$ for YMCA's Livestrong Program. Certified Spin Instructor Jun 2014.