sounds like you are in good hands (medically) and have found this board for mental support.... take everyone's advice -- they have been thru the worst and then some... and do try and put it out of your mind a bit for the next few days. Sending you best wishes, good healing vibes and prayers.
Ingrid K

DX 12/6/10 of T3 SCC Tongue.
Surgery 1/3/11 was hemigloss & forearm free flap, midline mandibulectomy, Neck Disection-All nodes clear.
Ended rads 5/11/11. Taste buds back to about 80%. PEG removed 4/5/12, experimenting eating real food again. If I can do this, so can you !! Stay Strong.