Even though it all feels like a flash, and I am trying to ease back into some sort of normalcy I am finding it troubling. Besides family, I feel at times I am looked at as if I should not still be here. People get the shocked look on their face and even some give off the vibe as if I only had the flu. I read it best here on the forum a few short months ago. A survivor said there is a downside to being just that, your obligations to back and work for the dickhead boss, paying off loans or a childs weddings, and just the sad reality that people suck!

We are I guess, a pretty cool club...Only we understand eachother and can give that head nod of " you kick-ass! " as others look at us like were contagious. I try to not look back but the sad statistics and numbers bother me so much some times. Like hey, you did it this time, but now can ya make it 5 years? Can you make it another scan all clear? Crazy ass world we live in, just having a very insightful day I guess.....Love all you guys!