Hi Nate,
I too was pretty depressed when i was at your stage of recovery. Slowly my depression got better, and now i have a pretty happy and good life! Ive adjusted to my life to suit my new normal. I've even have gone out a few times till 3am!! There was a time when i thought that would never happen. I've had a few scares along the way but fear is something i've accepted that comes with being a cancer patient. Hang in there buddy, its a slow process but you will feel better!! You have come such a long way already and it can only get better and better.
Hugs Minh