Minnie,
Good to hear from you.
Sorry that you are having hard time. I know it is hard when you feel like you are back where you started. Your really not! You have so much knowledge to help you through this. Plus you have all of us here.
Give your self a Big Hug... You have been through a lot. Pamper your self. Take a bubble bath, do your nails, give self a facial, You know girl stuff.

Today is a good day just to be YOU!
Take care, and so happy to hear from you
Diane