There are not words to express how sorry I am for this shitty turn of events. It makes each one of us realize how quickly things can change. Take that cruise. Write/record your history...leave your life story in wrting and on recording for those future grandbabies. They will know and love you by your words. Get a few favorite stories that you would like to share with them and record them. They will then be able to hear their grandma read to them. They will know you! As with the others, I am here with a virtual hug for you. I hope you can feel it.