bill...thanks for thoughts on peg coming out.
home for lunch today...1/2 egg salad sandwich dipped in new england clam chowder and swallowed with milk...other days hotdog wrapped in bread and dipped in chicken noodle soup...swallowed with milk.....how long can i keep forcing stuff down my throat that has little taste and is thick and dry from no saliva. sorry to dump this on the forum but i sure do get depressed thinking about the rest of my life not being able to sit down and enjoy a regular meal like all others in my circles. i know i know think of others in worse shape....easy to say hard to do.
guess i should tell the forum the other half of my tragedy this year....two weeks before i was diagnosed with stage 2 tonsil cancer....my 20 year old daughter hung herself leaving a 1 year old grandson for my wife and i to raise. the father is a long time heroin addict and currently in jail. have not had time to properly grieve as radiation and chemo started right away..treatments hit me hard as my whole family on my moms side is thin....i weighed 135 goin in. came down to 115 after 7 weeks treatments. then up to 121 until stopped using nutren2 and the tube. lost lost another 4 lbs since then but as i said doctors want the tube out. i agree with them...i hate the thing. also time to come off the roxicet and ativan....so thats pretty much my whole story....i have to admit...waking up every morning with a god-awful dry/sticky mouth(no matter how many times i get up and gargle/rinse/squirt)is difficult to manage psychologically(my wife and i do go for counselling). some days i feel things are improving...but then there are the other days.
trying to end this pity party but once again easier said than done...thanks for any and all replies.
