Darby - I think it is definitely better to get the information and to know where you stand even if it is scary so that you can start fighting it rather than wait for things to get worse and immobilizing panic to set in. For me, as a caregiver, right after the Dr said "Squamous Cell Cancer and before I found OCF, it scared me so much, I found myself sitting at my laptop searching for "Squamous Cell Cancer" and paralized at the thought of what I would discover. I couldn't believe how scared I was to take one finger and hit the key that would tell me if my son would live or die. I could NOT hit that key and it took several tries and several prayers and talks with myself and remembering the positive aspects of what the surgeon had to say about my son's upcoming surgery before I had the courage to hit that key on my laptop. It was really rough and I was only the caregiver. I can only imagine how much scarier it is for a cancer survivor. Once you start taking action and getting into fight mode, you feel more in control and it gets a lot easier. My son and I found OCF after he had started Rad Tx and the wealth of information as well as the compassion and knowledgeable help and experience of others here is what got us through and on the way to recovery and being cancer-free!