First and foremost...don't beat yourself up about your decisions...it's really pointless as what is is.

I had rads/chemo first to shrink my tumors and then had them surgically removed as well as reconstruction. It's worked out so far for me as I'm still here, but everyone responds differently to treatments and there is no gaurantee that it won't recurr as we've seen many times on these boards. What will be will be and we just have to deal with what comes when it comes.

Anyway, keep your chin up

Eric