Beth

I certainly admire your courage and willingness to find peace and acceptance and carry on with your life.

Everyone's circumstances are different. My medical problems are more then what I have posted here because I was trying to stick to my most recent symptoms concerning my head and neck area.

I was fortunate enough to get an appt. tomorrow with a specialist even though it is a four hour drive. I'm feeling very good about this doctor.

The thing is I have been on my own most of my life and have no support system. My children have a lot of problems right now and are in no position to take care of me through an illness.
Not only that they live on the West Coast and I live on the East Coast. My oldest daughter had heart surgery, thyroid cancer and last December on her birthday was hit by a drunk driver and was air lifted to a hospital in critical condition.
She is ok now after physical therapy but has six children at home and no job. The children's father died of a heat stroke four years ago.

Anyway the reason I said what I did about treatment is I don't want to add a burden to my children and other then one elderly aunt I have no family left other then a half brother I barely know.
A very close friend in New Orleans that is like a sister is taking care of a very sick husband right now and also took care of her mother through breast cancer.
I just don't think I could go through major surgery and so on by myself.

Interesting thing is my ex was an RN.

Not looking for pity or anything like that. I just think I have been misunderstood a bit.

Hugs to you and all the other courageous survivors here.

Brenda