Beth is right Brenda. You are in panic mode right now and your mind is running a million miles and hour at no rest hence giving even more panic and anxiety. It's the not knowing that is doing this to you. But please please try and calm down so you can think rationally. You already know so much about cancer which is good, write all your symptoms down and when you go to the ENT , make sure they are all mentioned and addressed. I'm currently waiting fir a biopsy result only 2 1/2 months after my treatment have finished. Like you I do fear for the worse BUT I'm still hoping for the best. The first day that I found my lump I was a complete mess but since then I have gone on to enjoy a pretty "normal" life. Enjoying every moment if it. Yes I still panic sometimes but I then force myself to stop thinking about it cos it's not going to change the biopsy results. While it's harder for you since you have the constant pain to remind you but please please try to calm down. Also, if it is cancer, why won't you have treatment? Since I have been in thus forum, I have seen how some posters have gone thru hell with cancer but they are alive, coping and are happy. This has inspired me and made me realise that I too can fight this till the very end. Life is so precious and I'm not going to let cancer take it away from me without a FIGHT. I'm so sorry you have to go thru this and the pain you are in. I hope you can get this resolved soon and I'm also hoping that it's not cancer .

Minh