I can't believe I'm about to post this but for about a week and a half, I've noticed something bothering me on my LEFT side of my neck under my jawline. I found a small lump upon palpation and I am beginning to get scared. I've stayed pretty positive throughout all of this crap and I thought I was just starting to freak out because my one year anniversary is coming up on finishing this battle, I see the doctors again at MD Anderson on the 30th for tests/scans again.

I told my hubby the other day and yesterday we were visiting a dear friend who is also an RN (actually she's a Nurse pracitioner now) and all she's ever worked in is Oncology but I asked her to feel my lymph nodes to see if she could spot it. I didn't tell her where but she felt it, my heart sank! Right now, I'm praying that it's just scar tissue or anything else but cancer.

I'm going to try and stop thinking about it so much, it's starting to make me go bonkers thinking the worse. I need to keep positive!!!

Anyways, thanks for letting me vent. I just need somewhere where I can express this without having others around me physically worry about me all the time.