Beth
I wish I had found OCF back when I started my radiation TX. Instead there was just our waiting room cohort of patients watching each other get worse every week. Take a look at these posts and see that all of us made it through radiation.
It seems like forever when you are doing it, but within a year you will be the one posting to a newcomer about how you survived the Radiation.
In the meantime, as a diversion, you could Think about what you want to do with your mask, I posted a link a while ago about an art exhibit made entirely out of recycled radiation masks. Others mount it on their wall as a "trophy" or "award". Others crush it, ride it over, burn it, shoot it, bury it or just leave it behind at the TX center.
Good luck
Charm


65 yr Old Frack
Stage IV BOT T3N2M0 HPV 16+
2007:72GY IMRT(40) 8 ERBITUX No PEG
2008:CANCER BACK Salvage Surgery
25GY-CyberKnife(5) 3 Carboplatin
Apaghia /G button
2012: CANCER BACK -left tonsilar fossa
40GY-CyberKnife(5) 3 Carboplatin

Passed away 4-29-13