Well, after going to my routine dental cleaning, life just got really difficult. While cleaning my teeth, my dentist discovered a small white spot on my retromolar region. I've had my wisdom teeth removed and a tonsillectomy in 2008. She mentioned that we should do a brush biopsy in a week if it hasn't gone away. The spot is very small but I had already noticed it in my mouth before she mentioned it. It was the way she was acting about it that totally freaked me out. So of course, I go home and can think of nothing else. I log on and start the downward spiral. I read about potential precancerous/cancerous lesions and color changes. I hear words like oral plague that can turn cancerous etc etc. By this time I'm totally freaking out. I read about HPV related oral cancers and I really get freaked out. I'm 31 now but 9 years ago I had some high risk cervical dysplasia removed from my cervix...HPV related. By this time I'm over the top. for the rest of the week I'm beside myself with worry. The white spot is still there and I've also noticed that the tonsillar pillars, tonsils were removed, had a white film over them. The white stain doesn't rub off. The texture isn't changed but there was definitely a dicoloration. So I manage to convince myself that I would wait until Tuesday, appt with ENT, to start getting panicked. Well, I got up this morning and started reading again on the internet. I read that the tongue was usually affected with HPV related cancers. My tongue is really short so I stuck out my tongue and didn't see anything. Well that wasn't good enough for me. Since I couldn't see anything, I started feeling for "stuff." I couldn't believe what I actually found on the far back side of my tongue. It was a small red colored nodule. It was kind of fleshy and I could wiggle it. Next to the nodule, I found what resembled a very small looking tongue "tag" or "flap." So of course I started freaking out. I literally almost passed out. The next thing I discovered seriously almost did me in. I stuck my tongue way out and looked on top it. There was a growth on the left side or tongue and another on the right side. They were very obvious and very out of place. I can't really decide if they look like papillomas. I'm sure they are. This all happened today and I haven't eaten anything or moved all day. I'm a single mother of a 6 year old and can't even bear the thought of oral cancer after reading here today. The prognosis and survival all seem so bleak. I don't have a family support system and moved a couple of years ago to a city where I really don't know many people. I also have an occupation that requires me to talk incessantly all day long. I've typed this long diatribe to convey how truly scared I am of not being around to raise my little guy. He does have an amazing dad, but unfortunately dad has a high profile coaching job that forces him to travel. Dad also lives in another state. I'm beyond scared and also freaking out about my pap test that's coming up in July. I've convinced myself it's cancer that has already spread. I mean, I've read extensively on this forum and have yet to see someone mention having 3 different nodules or tumors all in the same area. Two of the growths are on each side of my tongue and on the very back no less. I'm seeing total glossectomy in my future with slim chances. Funny thing is, not being promiscuous doesn't stop this from happening. Sometimes you think you're in a momogamous relationship, but the other partner didn't get the memo.....