when we received the news on thursday i wanted to run home as fast as i could so ithat i could e-mail Amy and ask where she found her strength to deal with this situation.I knew she would say all the right things to me and help me on the path to being the best support to my husband i could and all i found was a computer that wouldnt connect to the internet.the conection is still very fragile and i may dissappear again at any time. Buti will be back home in a few days and back on broadband thank god.
i find it impossible to computethat just 5 short months ago i joined this site as a terrified newbie and now i am battle worn veteran about to lead the assault on the final hurdle.

The man i left such a very sort time ago has gone and is replaced by a strong very brave very kind and loving person,who i feel it impossible not to pity because he has to end his days with such an awful and unpleasent disfigurement that means he is confined to the house.He doesnt even think about having a drink,when the first time in his life it doesnt matter a damn he says thankyou all the time and touches and kisses me every time i am within arms reach.He says he isnt scared and is putting all his affairs in order and dealing with every thing methodically within in the limits of his terrible speech difficulties.He has lost another 14 lbs and is so very very thin now but the dietician says not to force him to have feeds.

I feel very much like second in command to a very brave and courageous general,and i am proud to serve him to the best of my ability.

i know god will forgive his previous mistakes and hope he will accept his spirit into his arms.

My dear friends i would NEVER have survived this ordeal without you all and i hope to continue to survive in this place of love,friendship and support.

yourvery grateful friend across the pond. xx