Gmas....try to put yourself in "neutral," as hard as that might be. Be as busy as possible. Remind yourself that it's not cancer until the tests prove that it is.....And if it is, you can be guaranteed of advice and comfort here. And if it is NOT, you can be guaranteed of rejoicing from those here!! Either way, you have our prayers, and we hope that you'll report back when you get some results......and write anytime. We've all been there, and it's not a nice place to be!! XO