Come on over. They would love you.
In all seriousness, I am scared to death. Everytime my throat starts hurting or my neck or my ear, I just get petrified that this junk is back. I do not know how to handle all of this. I am not good at dealing with the unknown. I can only hide my fear from people for so long and pretend that I am okay. When in reality I am so not okay.(bad grammar, owell, I am a math teacher anyway and special ed one at that) I love my job and can stand that thought that I may have to be gone for awhile because of some stupid cancer crap. I used to never cus, but i have been cussing like you wouldn't believe the last few weeks. I think it a way to get rid of some the crap that I am feeling right now. Anyway, thanks for letting me vent all this. I really do not know how you all stay so strong. I just want my life back, I hate this "new normal."


Angelia
31 at Dx.
DX: 4/30/09, 10/21/09 SCC on floor of mouth,
T1NOMO, T2N1M0
TX: 39 IMRT, 8 cisplatin 11/30/09
PET/CT: 11/03/09: Lymph node involvement
PEG/PORT: 11/09
TX end: 02/01/10
PET Scan: 04/05/10 clear
PEG Out: 06/21/10
Biopsy: 12/23/10: fibrosis
HBO: 01/04/11 - ORN
Baby girl born 11-30-12