Well no wonder you are feeling down emotionally...loneliness can breed some rough times. Add a divorce to the loneliness and things can feel monumentally worse.

From what I have witnessed, doing soul work requires a deep-seeded spirituality. This is just my humble opinion, but I don't think you should waste your money on that route if you aren't all that spiritual.

What can you do to move past the loneliness? How far away is your family, when is the last time you saw them?

Why is it that you get sick when you exercise? Have you tried any milder forms of exercise...like yoga or pilates? Both are nurturing for the body and the mind.

I'm sorry you are going through such a difficult time. I wish there was a simple solution, but working out of a depression and loneliness takes some concentrated effort.

Are you an animal person? Have you thought about getting a dog? Or volunteering at a shelter where there are other wonderful people?

I hope others here have some ideas that might be useful for you.

What are your interests?


Margaret
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C/G: Husband, 48 (at time of dx)
Dx 5/18/07 SCC, BOT, lymph node involvement. T1N2BM0. (Stage 4a, G2/3)
Tx 6/18 - 8/3/07, IMRT x 33 Cisplatin x3 (stopped after 1st dose due to hearing issues). Weekly Erbitux started 6/27/07 completed 8/6/07.