I'm so incredibly sad to read your recent post and to read about how scared you feel. Of course you are sad and scared. I so wish i had an easy fix, or the right words. I have neither. Praying for your peace, for Doug. It's all I can offer. Hoping someone there will come along side of you for support.
xo

Nancy (53 at dx)
Metastatic SCC. Stage III. HPV positive with occult primary. N1, no ecs
7/1/11 - L-Selective neck dissection. Tonsillectomy. All clean. No rad, no chemo.
5/29/13 - Found primary
7/3/13 - TORS
7/8/13 - Emergency Surgery/Blood vessel burst in throat
8/9/13 - Peg in
9/3/13 - Radiation starts 30 IMRT, 60gy BOT, 56gy both sides of neck
10/14/13 - Radiation ended!
11/12/13 - PEG out!