Oh boy could I relate to you Bloop- My last PET scan was not clear and I insisted on a biopsy and found out that that niggling feeling was right, the cancer was back. People always tell me how great I look (70 pounds thinner than a year ago)but yeah, given a choice I would take the fat back and be done with all of this. I was actually accepting for a while but now after all the pain, worry of losing my job, loneliness and isolation from everyone, I too want to be back the way I was. I'm so glad you guys are here.