#43856 09-13-2004 10:42 AM | Joined: May 2002 Posts: 2,152 Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts) |  Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts)
Joined: May 2002 Posts: 2,152 | Danny, So sorry to hear you are depressed again. Please follow the advice of others and get some help from a doctor. Try to focus on Vegas next week and do some fun things with your family. Looking forward to seeing you Vegas.
Eileen
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Aug 1997 unknown primary, Stage III
mets to 1 lymph node in neck; rt ND, 36 XRT rad
Aug 2001 tiny tumor on larynx, Stage I total laryngectomy; left ND
June 5, 2010 dx early stage breast cancer
June 9, 2011 SCC 1.5 cm hypo pharynx, 70% P-16 positive, no mets, Stage I
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#43857 09-13-2004 11:59 AM | Joined: Oct 2003 Posts: 49 Contributing Member (25+ posts) | | Contributing Member (25+ posts)
Joined: Oct 2003 Posts: 49 | Danny, I really don't have any other advice to add to what the others have said, but I want you to know that you have been a very positve voice to this board. Please follow what the others have suggested. You are one of the bright lites here. Never give up hope. Prove them wrong, beat it back and look forward to the positive things you can do once this treatment ends. I wish I could bring you out of the depression but you are in control of that. The fight is in you and the strength also is in you. You are too important to your family and those of us here to let this disease rule you. Don't give it the right. Hang in there Danny, you can do it and we will be here to support you.
5-02 SCC T1N1M0 Stage 3 Right Tonsil
6-02 Right Radical Neck Disection
9-03 Recurrent SCC Dx Stage 4 unknown prim
12-03 7 Chemo
12-03 36 Rad
5-04 Left Upper Lung Wedge Resection neg
7-04 Right Parotidectomy
9-04 Began IMRT
10-04 Ended IMRT
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#43858 09-14-2004 11:32 AM | Joined: Feb 2004 Posts: 162 Gold Member (100+ posts) | | Gold Member (100+ posts)
Joined: Feb 2004 Posts: 162 | Danny,
As a former depressive, I know what's it like to "fall in the ditch." But I can't say I know what it's like to walk in your shoes and to be dealing with the things that you are at this time. I've never been one to blow sunshine up your you-know-what or to make religious noises as I prefer to deal with facts no matter how harsh or what news they may bring.
You have obviously had a tremendous impact on the folks around here, myself included. From what little I do know of you, I think I can confidently say that you have this impact on everyone who takes the time to get to know you. I hope that, in spite of your depression, you'll stay in the fight and that your spirit can find renewal in the thought of all those who know you and love you.
Hang in there, Danny Boy. It ain't over yet and there are too many who need you and want you around.
-Brett
Base of Tongue SCC. Stage IV, T1N2bM0. Diagnosed 25 July 2003.
Treated with 6 weeks induction chemo -- Taxol & Carboplatin once a week followed with 30 fractions IMRT, 10 fields per fraction over 6 more weeks. Recurrence October 2005.
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#43859 09-14-2004 12:13 PM | Joined: Oct 2003 Posts: 52 Supporting Member (50+ posts) | | Supporting Member (50+ posts)
Joined: Oct 2003 Posts: 52 | Dan,
I don't understand suffering and I never will.
You have a right to everything you are feeling.
I pray that I could take your pain away.
Watching yourself get weaker and not beable to do the things you once could is agonizing.
Losing the simple ability to eat and open your mouth brings pain to my heart that takes my breath away.
With all that you are going through you are a very strong man indeed, a man who has a right to be angry and depressed, scared and tired.
A man who has a right to live....
I hold you in my heart and in my prayers.
Love,
Michelle
Michelle, sister to Marcy
Dx January 03, partial glossectomy/selective neck dissection T2N1MO/recurrence June 03, radiation and chemo/recurrence Dec. 03 mets to spine and base of skull//palliative care//lost her April 10th 2004 Age of 32
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#43860 09-14-2004 01:06 PM | Joined: Mar 2004 Posts: 117 Gold Member (100+ posts) | | Gold Member (100+ posts)
Joined: Mar 2004 Posts: 117 | Dan,
I will pray for you to find the path back to your normal, positive self. Know that I am thinking about you and holding you up all the way from Philadelphia. I hope that you are able to enjoy Las Vegas -- you've put a lot into it.
Hang in there,
love, Barb
SCC tongue, stage I (T1N0M0), partial glossectomy and modified neck dissection 7/1/03
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#43861 09-14-2004 02:50 PM | Joined: Nov 2002 Posts: 274 Platinum Member (200+ posts) | | Platinum Member (200+ posts)
Joined: Nov 2002 Posts: 274 | All,
What a wonderful outpouring of support. Please keep in mid that we may be perpetuating a brief low point in Dan's week. This is just my obsevation. I spoke with him last night and he sounded pretty good, I think he had food in his mouth!
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#43862 09-14-2004 07:22 PM | Joined: Jul 2003 Posts: 1,163 Patient Advocate (1000+ posts) | | OP Patient Advocate (1000+ posts)
Joined: Jul 2003 Posts: 1,163 | Thank You All,
I never thought of myself as anything special. Just a normal guy trying to raise my family and love my friends.
I was one lucky man to have found this website. I can't express in words in a email what all your responses mean to me.
Looking forward to Vegas so much. Plan on enjoying all your company and eating like a pig.
My son Chris and daughter Maggie are also coming.
Thanks Again, Danny Boy
Daniel Bogan DX 7/16/03 Right tonsil,SCC T4NOMO. right side neck disection, IMRT Radiation x 33.
Recurrance in June 05 in right tonsil area. Now receiving palliative chemo (Erbitux) starting 3/9/06
Our good friend and loved member of the forum has passed away RIP Dannyboy 7-16-2006
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#43863 09-15-2004 05:46 AM | Joined: Sep 2002 Posts: 642 "Above & Beyond" Member (500+ posts) | | "Above & Beyond" Member (500+ posts)
Joined: Sep 2002 Posts: 642 | Danny Boy,
Thank you so much for your honesty. I think that baring your pain and worries to your friends at OCF helps us, and, I hope that it helps you as well. Although as an oral cancer survivor, I live for today, I still like to get a peek at what may lie ahead one day for me. I would rather know what many of us face rather than bury my head in the sand.
I am sorry that I won't be in Vegas to meet you. I remember when you first came on the board. From the start you brought a fun and loving spirit that all of your friends here really appreciate.
You are a great guy. I hope that it gets better for you.
Danny G.
Stage IV Base of Tongue SCC
Diagnosed July 1, 2002, chemo and radiation treatments completed beginning of Sept/02.
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#43864 09-16-2004 12:54 PM | Joined: Aug 2004 Posts: 217 Platinum Member (200+ posts) | | Platinum Member (200+ posts)
Joined: Aug 2004 Posts: 217 |
Nicki, wife of Thomas
dx July 2004, SCC, Stage 4 Tonsil. Tx begun 8/4/04. Cisplatin/Xeloda x 4; IMRT 7 wks, 8/7 - 10/25/04 Modified Radical Dissection (right), Selective Dissection (Left) 12/10/04.
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#43865 09-21-2004 04:29 PM | Joined: Apr 2002 Posts: 73 Supporting Member (50+ posts) | | Supporting Member (50+ posts)
Joined: Apr 2002 Posts: 73 | Dan,
I hope that Vegas is a fun and emotionally healing time. I don't have the magic words to say. However I think that given what you've had to deal with I'd be surprised if you weren't depressed! All I can do is add my voice to the chorus of well wishers and to agree with the suggestions to consult the doctor/counselor etc. And of course, keep letting us know how you are doing.
ilene
ilene
SCC stage 1 1987, 1/4 of tongue removed, neck dissection, SCC stage 3 2000, another 1/4+ removed second neck dissection, radiation.
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