| Joined: Dec 2010 Posts: 5,264 Likes: 4 "OCF Canuck" Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts) | "OCF Canuck" Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts) Joined: Dec 2010 Posts: 5,264 Likes: 4 | I think for me it was more fear and anxiety that was an issue. Depression never came into play really. I think it may have to do with the fact that I am naturally a happy person... blame it on my hormones i guess. Regardless I was simply glad to be alive and moving away from my treatment etc... Not that everything didn't suck BIG TIME... IT did. but I looked at it as being fortunate that while I had to go through it at least it wasn't a six to eight month ordeal like a lot of other cancer patients have to go through with chemo. The scary part of course is the numbers, but I figure if I can get through it I would do what I could to come out in okay shape and work on what needed working on - speech, eating, dry mouth etc... meds should help - if they don't they may need to be tweaked, and yay on the therapist.
Hugs.
Cheryl : Irritation - 2004 BX: 6/2008 : Inflam. BX: 12/10, DX: 12/10 : SCC - LS tongue well dif. T2N1M0. 2/11 hemigloss + recon. : PND - 40 nodes - 39 clear. 3/11 - 5/11 IMRT 33 + cis x2, PEG 3/28/11 - 5/19/11 3 head, 2 chest scans - clear(fingers crossed) HPV-, No smoke, drink, or drugs, Vegan
| | | | Joined: Jul 2009 Posts: 1,409 Patient Advocate (1000+ posts) | Patient Advocate (1000+ posts) Joined: Jul 2009 Posts: 1,409 | The combination of SSRIs and therapy was a lifesaver (perhaps literally) for me many years ago. I know these drugs are controversial. On the one hand they've been greatly improved since my time on good old Prozac; but I've also read that some research shows that they really have no effect. I would tend to discount the latter since we're talking about the mind.
David 2 SCC of occult origin 1/09 (age 55)| Stage III TXN1M0 | HPV 16+, non-smoker, moderate drinker | Modified radical neck dissection 3/09 | 31 days IMRT finished 6/09 | Hit 15 years all clear in 6/24 | Radiation Fibrosis Syndrome kicked in a few years after treatment and has been progressing since | Prostate cancer diagnosis 10/18
| | | | Joined: Oct 2011 Posts: 67 "OCF Canuck" Supporting Member (50+ posts) | "OCF Canuck" Supporting Member (50+ posts) Joined: Oct 2011 Posts: 67 | I happened to have depression before the cancer. I'm sure it contributed to the decline of my physical heath and the eventual cancer as I didn't care enough to look after myself - nothing really mattered at the time and I didn't know what to do about it. If you even have an inkling that there is something wrong with the way you are feeling, or you are not just right in your thinking - get help. I went to a pain clinic during/after my treatments and a neurologist thought there was something more he could do for me. He saved my life by referring me to a psychologist and a psychiatrist at the Tom Baker Cancer center here in Calgary. I was diagnosed with bipolar depression. Along with talk therapy, I have since tried many different meds. I'm now on Mirtazapine and it has lifted my spirits and helped me gain weight! (It's not for everyone - YMMV) In my experience, if I had to choose between cancer and depression, I would choose cancer. I still say that. Depression can be even more deadly. Get help and do not think this is a minor thing that may go away in time, as it's not worth the risk. BTW - eating Lindt Red Chili Dark Chocolate brought back my saliva after 3 years of terrible dry mouth. Or at least I am telling myself that.
Pain late 2009. Dx as change in altitude. Sore spot on tongue late 2010. Dx as irritation. Leukoplakia Bx Feb 2011 - Lichen Planus. Bx May 2011 - Hyperplasia. Same sample retested as SCC. June 2011 Rt Hemigloss,ND,rff,33 Rads. Hosp for 15 days w/bi-lateral pneumonia. T3N1M0 Stage IV. | | | | Joined: Dec 2003 Posts: 2,606 Likes: 2 Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts) | Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts) Joined: Dec 2003 Posts: 2,606 Likes: 2 | Thank you for sharing your story, Shauneen. I admire your courage in bringing this up. All of us will experience situational depression from the diagnosis alone, that builds through treatment and beyond. Bringing depression into this process will certainly escalate issues.
Please know, your depression or lack thereof is not the reason for your cancer. It just happened. I'm glad your doctor recognized your depression and gave you the referral.
SCC Stage IV, BOT, T2N2bM0 Cisplatin/5FU x 3, 40 days radiation Diagnosis 07/21/03 tx completed 10/08/03 Post Radiation Lower Motor Neuron Syndrome 3/08. Cervical Spinal Stenosis 01/11 Cervical Myelitis 09/12 Thoracic Paraplegia 10/12 Dysautonomia 11/12 Hospice care 09/12-01/13. COPD 01/14 Intermittent CHF 6/15 Feeding tube NPO 03/16 VFI 12/2016 ORN 12/2017 Cardiac Event 06/2018 Bilateral VFI 01/2021 Thoracotomy Bilobectomy 01/2022 Bilateral VFI 05/2022 Total Laryngectomy 01/2023
| | | | Joined: Nov 2009 Posts: 644 Likes: 1 "OCF Down Under, Kiwi" "Above & Beyond" Member (500+ posts) | "OCF Down Under, Kiwi" "Above & Beyond" Member (500+ posts) Joined: Nov 2009 Posts: 644 Likes: 1 | Yes, thank you, Shauneen. Your advice could help people who see depression as something minor or something to be ashamed of. You are not the only one who had the cancer piled on top of exisiting personal issues. When the situational depression, as Uptown calls it, hits, it gets mixed up with other patterns of thinking that have developed over our lifetimes. Or at least that is the way I see it. I have a pathological reluctance to ask for help and a fear of losing control which also makes it hard for me to deal with perfectly justified fear and sadness.
I'm glad you are feeling better and I might try the chocolate remedy for dry mouth:) Not too sure about the chilli though.
Best wishes Maureen
1996, ovarian cancer surgery + cisplatin and taxol. September, 2007, SCC of left lateral tongue. Excision. October, 2009 recurrence in scar tissue, T1NOMO. Free flap surgery from left wrist - neck dissection. 63 year old New Zealander. No chemo, no RT. February, 2014. New primary in left buccal mucosa. Marginal mandibulectomy, neck dissection, right arm free forearm flap. T1N0M0 but third occurrence and some areas of concern: RT started 8 April and finished 19 May.
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