Thanks for the welcome, bethers0808, as I mentions in my post for David. At 5 months you are very new, give it time, things will settle down afther a while and you will learn how to deal with what comes. You have been given a the giftof life today, enjoy it. Stay in touch with this forum and talk about what you are feeling. There might be a cancer support group at your hospital if so join it. They are a great help.