Hello everyone. I am a 47 Brit living in this great country for almost 20 years now. My first squamous cell tumor appeared on the lower part of my tongue in Dec 1998, and was removed in hospital. No radiation or chemo was recommended at that time. The doctors told me give up alcohol. I didn

I have frequently found in my own life,. that I do not change until the pain of not changing exceeds the pain of the change itself. Seems crazy, but in some ways, though I was never a big drinker and never smoked, I relate to what you are saying. When we get a little distance between ourselves and a really negative event, sometimes the acute discomfort of that event pales. We can easily fall back into a mindset that involves denial...and that ain't a river in Egypt. I wish you the best in this current fight. I have no personal experience with brachytherapy, but a know some other posters here have. I'm sure they will post to you their experiences.