Maybe you could contact a social worker at Shands in Gainesville, I assume that's where they were referring you to. Don't give up and don't be too proud here. You have been comfortable through out your life so far and have paid a lot of taxes so it's not begging. Healthcare should be a right in this country not something you get when you can afford it. I'm sure your wife and children don't want you to leave this earth yet. Besides you have proven you are a fighter through your sobriety and I know that is no easy task. Keep fighting!