I went back to the surgeron the other day, she told me how great I looked and how well I was doing, that every thing was great. she feel my neck and looked in my ears, checked ny rash and said I was all healed and doing great. big mouth me I pull out my lab, cat scan and doctors report from the cancer center, She got mad, pulled it out of my hand as i was raeding from it and looked it over, she said this is all a lie, you shouldn't be reading it, your doing great and all of this is lies. I said the doctors are lying to me and she said yes, she said there was nothing wrong with my kidney. I said I really need someone to set and and talk to me about all of this, she said its all a lie, came back in one month and left. How can the cat scan, lab worker and all doctots but her be wrong. I wish they where. I had been to my gp a few days before about my husband,elec. wheel chair and He was talking about me one, I said I don't need one, I'm going to get better. He said I can see the two of you riding down thou the mall, he said they do make them two seatter. I said again I'm going to get better aren't I, He never did answer. He said come back in a month and left. I don't know, do they even know, before I have more test. but most days even with cane I fall down. the last two days I've been crying a lot, not because of the illness, but because I need to know. I'm the type if I know I may cry, but than I get over it and get ready for it. other wise I set around and worry. should I have comfronted her with paperwork,I would love to believe her, BUT she is the same one who told me and my family that she got all the cancer, it wasnt on the bone.and I had nothing to worry about. 10 days later she told me it was on the bone and she couldn't get a clear margin. when I asked her about side effects of treatment, she told me she could have tore out my jaw and took a hunk out of my arm to fix it, and people think I'm crazy, I just want someone to tell me the truth and I'm going to a kidney doctor Fri. how much do I ask him, Is it ok to ask about test and different ways to treat it or should I just go in and keep my mouth shut and do as I'm told, should I ask for copies of my records there? another thing my gp ask for a copy of my records and lab work from the cancer the other day and I gave them to him ( I make a copy and carry last 2 visits with me to every doc. most want them) shouldn't they already have copies? Sorry to bother you all again, your all so nice and helpful, when it come to cancer I can't help on one. cause I don't know anything about it, beside what i learn in here.