Well something came out of the programme wether its good or not i am not sure.The programme was 45 minutes and i guess one third of it was devoted to pauls disappearance.watching it was the most traumatic experience i have had since robin died.they kept showing huge blown up pictures of paul taken over the last couple of years,even one i took myself on robins first birthday after he died.I didn't see paul on the tv screen!!! I just saw Robin.I had forgotten how alike they were.Results were the flood gates opened.All the tears i have never cried,all the pain i wouldn't feel,thank god i had my bereavement session tonight. It was nearly two hours in before i could even speak.i recorded the programme and cant stop watching it,i dont hear the words,i am mesmerised by the many images of paul/robin and i wonder how i got here.