John,

Don't even concern yourself with your staging. It won't matter what stage you are if your cancer comes back or it never comes back. Just concentrate on your recovery and be thankful your Tx is over.

We all feared the first few post Tx scans and that's perfectly normal. Thankfully the large percentage of them come back "unremarkable" but don't be overly concerned if the first one or two still shows "some areas that can not be excluded" as there may be some areas of inflammation from the radiation. Usually they resolve themselves by the next scan.

Listen to your docs. If they say don't be concerned, then don't. Not saying it's easy but it will be easier on you if you can.

Can't really answer your sleeping pill problem but I was never one to take pills so if you don't want to then try to work through it. Try getting yourself really really tired and see if you can fall asleep naturally. You can bet that your mind is probably working overtime in the background with everything you've been through. Try to congratulate yourself and feel proud at what you have accomplished.

Hang in there, it gets better every day.