Night before surgery still can't sleep...waiting for all to come home and say goodnite and get one more hug from everyone...my son, my daughter, my future son-in-law and best friend...there are so many ifs my stomach is in knots and I am so not sure of what is going to happen...thought I was ready...really did...how can someone prepare for this...think I am gonna wash my hair...I don't know what to do ....I should have gone with them and spent the time with them...I will be good I pray and pray and pray...I can't believe I have cancer...god please help me...
I know they are professionals and I am a anxious but that is me..they will have their hands full..I am not making any sense any more...I feel like my hands are so tied...nothing to do but do...if there is anyone out there thanks for listening...