DElia,
Put the deposit down, believe that all will be well, it is no guarantee, however you CANNOT sit around thinking the worst. Believe me I know, and I also know it is easier said than done, I know this all to well. The glass is half
full as opposed to half empty. You and charlie should begin to drink from it. Believe in it. Have a cool time with your wedding, it will truely be a celebration.
Lenny