Well I am very angry right now. Dan woke up about an hour ago and I was checking on him and asking him could I get him some food/water/etc. He said maybe in a little while. I told him I was concerned, etc. and he said he was fine. I mentioned going to the doc tomorrow, etc. and he said well we're not doing aything tomorrow but my radiation treatment - I have a big day at work. After a "disagreement" he said I could go with him Tuesday, which is the regular day we see the RO. He can be so hard-headed and God knows I don't wnat him to hurt but I guess he'll have to hit bottom to realize what kind of shape he's in. After we "talked" he heated up the soup I made yesterday and poured a large glass of water. I hear him in the living room - literally choking it down. I had called my dad earlier and cancelled him as my driver tomorrow for my back procedure. I just called him back and told him I guess he might as well come on and get me. If Dan's not going to let me help him nor go to the doctor tomorrow there is no need for me to sit around here and cry and worry about it. I need this procedure for my back, but of course would gladly postpone it to get him some help.

I know what he's doing to himself and all the things to say to him. I failed tonight. He is just being an ignorant A*&^. My dad and step-mom offerred to talk to him, but I know it won't do any good it will just make him angry.

I told him he obviously didn't need me right now and I was going to bed. So I'm in here watching TV using the laptop and he's in the there eating.

Oh - he had the audacity to say well I'm eating now so it's fine. I said I am so happy/proud/etc. that you are eating now, but you are water and calorie deficiant and this one potential meal is not going to make up for it. You've been this way since Friday.(and he may not even be able to get this down or keep it down). Then the fool stepped on the scale and said well I'm not down much (he wouldn't tell me the number) and I said at this moment I'm more concerned with everything else than the weight. That's not the only indicator - if it was then why do they do your bloodwork. He just got quiet after that and poured a bigger glass of water.

UGH sorry to dump this on you guys - I am just soooo frustrated right now. Thank heavens David went on to sleep early tonight. I don't think I could handle him in the mood I'm in.

Thanks for listening and I guess Dan's going to have to hit bottom before he starts listening to me. Just pray that he doesn't kill himself in the meantime.