if only i knew i would be cancer free after that, i would be feeling much better. but even that seems to me almost impossible. i try not to loose my courrage but it's so difficult.
how long does it take to start talking again even if i don't speak clearly? how long should i have the peg? how severe is the pain and when i would start to feeling better? you know i have nightmares that i won't make it, it's the first time after 8 yrs of fight that i am so scared!