Sounds like you are on your way to taking are of a very difficult situation. Accepting a situation for what it is, is the first step in taking action. The "in between" stage is the most stressful but if you can accept it and not let it become part of any reflection on your own abilities or qualities, then it will be easier to take whatever action you feel best. It's just like with a diagnosis of cancer - it's horrible when you first hear it - but after the biopsy comes back, then you can take action. You've already come thru the big "C" and you're back "running" again. You will come thru this, too! As Eckhart Tolle mentions in his book "A New Earth" "this too, will pass".