Hi I joined this sight because I read alot of the things people had to say and I never read any off color anything. I have made alot of my desisions because of things people had to say here. These people here are really careing people and I find myself coming back alot. I had a sjmall case of cancer and it is gone for now. My Dr said I would most likely get it back but I know what I am looking for so it won't get as bad if it does. I was not going to go for the treatments he was saying and yes it made my family mad at me but I was thinking about the work I would be missing. They informed me that they didn't want to miss me. I feel bad that you are going through all this pain and wish I lived closer to you so we could get together and fuss about this mess that seems to have pushed itself on us but I live in Georgia. I took 33 treatments of radiation and slept alot. I took vicodine alot and they put me on zoloft. I voss laid me off so I wouldn't have to worry about things, he even paid me to take it off. He was great, my family was great and I feel better. I still am tired but I am working agin at 40 to 45 hours a week. Good luck to you and I hope your pain gets better. You sound like a very strong person. Brenda