Leslie: As Helen says, you are NOT alone, many of us here genuinely care about you and want to encourage you.

I hope that your doctor can prescribe something for anxiety/depression if he hasn't already. My big strong 'macho' man thought he could deal with all the side effects of this disease without any 'help', but is much better since accepting a prescription that aleviates some of the mental complications.

Keep posting and keep reading. I'm sure there are others here who have experienced some of what you are going through now; not everyone logs on every day and there are now over 5000 forum members.

Stay in touch and let us know how you're doing.

Lois & Buzz in NC