Mandi ,

I too write my experinces down in like a journal novel for me as a healing .....but I can tell you if you want to write somthing people will read .......WRITE WHAT YOU JUST WROTE TO US !! as hard as it is ...people want to hear it and read it ..to see the HUman side if it . Somtimes that is what it takes to make them realize. I will tell you .. I remember that Book or TV show That PULLED MY HEART STRINGS ,,way before the one that just informed me and I relate more to.

I sit here and the tears fall for you and your husband and for others who have to live through the same things. I have so many of those same fears of what if it comes back ....what then ...And by you sharing your thoughts , while they are sooo sooo personal , are probably somewhat similar feelings or concerns of some other caregivers somewhere. and it helps us as PTs see that .

PLease know that I hold you in my heart , both of you ..My husband and I have had a very tough time with all this and I don't know how this marriage will turn out ... but I can't imagine not even haivng the possibility of so many of those things you have lost.

My thoughts and prayers are with you ....and write that book. I for one would buy it !

Shar