Hi: Pam
I just read your post and it was inspirational to me. You have a great attitude and I know it is not easy but we have to find the stuff that gives us joy to take our minds away from all of this that we never asked or planned to be dealing with!!
I love to hike in the forest with my dog and when I do I forget about all of this.
Funny thing yesterday I spoke with my Sister and she said, I must have a postive attitude or this will all come back, well you know I am sure she meant well however until you have cancer you really don't know how you are going to deal with it and I try not to worry unless someone gives me something to worry about! I just hate it though when people say I must be positive, because they just don't know how hard it is to be damn positive all the time!!!
Just me ranting!! lol
All the best to you!!!
Best Regards, Adele