Lisa,

We all go thru a long period where we are questioning everything in our life that led us down this path. All things changed for me once Tx was over and I was back to trying to reclaim my life. I first wanted to retire, sell everything, downsize our home and live out our lives. Fortunately my wife said NO give it one more year and see how you feel. I HATED eating because nothing tasted the same except sweets and I was never a sweets eater..always into exercise...so sweets were kinda like against my "religion". In order to enjoy eating I had to find a way to add sweets to my meals like pancakes with syrup and eggs for lunch and deserts with dinner. I had to force myself to eat. My wife owns a restaurant which is located next to my CPA office. All day long she and other employees would ask me what do you want to eat?? They would come over and bring me food and say try this. All I wanted was for them to leave me and my pity alone. I would say you just don't understand.

You will constantly go thru changes during your recovery and most are very subtle. I found my saliva getting better and my taste improving slowly and with that came more foods I could add to my "what do you want to eat" list.

Once I started exercising again I felt like I had reclaimed a big part of my life back and my attitude really changed. This site also helped by showing me that I was just recovering normally and others improve over a long period of time.

I am now glad my wife put her foot down to retirement and I now eat what I want and I don't hate eating anymore. I still like sweets more now and this holiday stuff isn't helping. You should see my office...it looks like a cookie shop not a CPA's office !! Clients and employees all gave me cookies and chocolate knowing my newfound attraction to sweets. Somehow I'll find the strenght to eat my way back to my CPA office before tax season starts. LOL

Hang in there and believe me things will get better. I guarantee it.