Jamie, this is prehaps a discussion we could pursue via e-mail, if you would like. You are 55 if my calculation is right- I am soon to be 67. You are mising some body parts, as am I. How,why and in what spirit we choose to go forward is a personal thing to each of us. We each have to decide if our life is worth the effort it takes to plow forward. Amy in the Ozarks