Haven't posted in quite awhile, but I just wanted to get it out there that I am now post treatment and it's getting better every day!!!!

Last radiation treatment was on 8-7-07. I had my PEG removed just 6 weeks later. I actually cried when I got my first sip of water down without choking!! I knew it wouldn't be long till that nasty ass PEG hit the road.

That thing was so much trouble. I never could get used to the feedings. Constant nausea and vomiting. I lost 50 lbs!! I'm looking pretty good, though. My doc called me "slightly obese" just before my surgery in March. Pretty hot now, though!! Just imagine if I had opted to not get a PEG! I'd be too hot to handle (except for all these scars on my face and neck)!

I did spend a couple of days in the hospital for dehydration, too. I highly suggest this if you get to feeling a bit lonely at home. Damn nurses won't leave you alone for two minutes. They gotta check this, or adjust that, or fluff this... Oy Vay!! I won't even get into the guy in the other bed. He didn't sound that sick to me. Send his crabby ass home, already. He's been threatening to leave for 5 hours. Let him go!

As for the radiation treatments, I can't say enough good things about those ladies there!! What a fantastic group. They rubbed my back everytime I threw up all over the place and never complained once. At least not while I was around. They also had to endure my "take my mind off things" music for 30 days. Same songs, day after day, after day, after day... Even I can't stand Michael Buble anymore!!! One of them even asked to borrow one of the songs for her sister's wedding. I know she was full of crap. They do or say anything to make you feel better. So Sweet!!

Now I'm home recuperating. Eating is a chore. I used to love to eat (hence the slightly obese comment). Now I dread meal time. By the time I make it through breakfast, it's time to start on lunch. One bite of food, three gulps of water. I have to drink so much to get the food down that I'm full before I really had anything to eat.

Oh yeah, this dry mouth thing, pain in the ass. I never was a big water drinker before all of this. Now? Thank heaven it's free. I think I spend more time pissing than I do breathing!! That includes about four trips out of bed every night. My kidneys are exhausted.

Speaking of exhaustion. I was doing pretty good about three weeks after I finished treatment, but all of a sudden, the last couple of weeks, I feel completely drained again. I spend alot of time sitting on the couch, if I'm not in bed (sometimes twelve hours a night). That's minus the bathroom trips, of course! All things in time, I guess.

Anyway, that's just some of what I've been going through. I'll fill you in on more later. And believe me there is more. THE HAIR LOSS, THE MUCUS, THE DEPRESSION, THE STARES, THE INCESSANT SYMPATHY, THE DIZZY SPELLS... Who new cancer was so much fun.