Hi Jim,I thought I would write, everyone else is so supportive and I want to say something. The 10 years is great! Did the intense Radiation effect your esophogas? I have a friend that had Radiation when he was younger. He had a tumor in his chest and they really let him have it. Well what happened was the bones in his upper chest are sunken and the tops of his lungs don't work. Years later he has a bad valve in his heart and is going to Chicago to have an operation. He is getting his effects in order just in case he doesn't make it. Any how you made me think about him, with damage to areas that may be unrelated to your cancer. I have been with a tube for almost 3 months and it would drive me nuts but I could see living with it. There are alternatives to that. I have a lession in my esophagas that makes swalllowing difficult and I read about a procedure where they cut out the damaged portion of the tube and pull your stomach up to meet the good part. This is supposed to be very serious but it works. I may not be helping but I am thinking about you.