Hi Dan , Bob is right: things can really get better. I choose not to respond to your post earlier because I know very well that with such a wonderful family standing by your side, I am very sure you can overcome your depression with ease. As cancer survivors, we tend to be too greedy if we expect ourselves to resume to the normal life we used to have before cancer.Not realistic! I had been summoned to serve as juror here for three times before I had cancer and I was summoned again three weeks ago. It hurt when I knew very well that I was unfit to be one and so, with my oncologist's certification, I asked for permanent exemption. Something that I could do with ease in the past can no longer be done today. But to look at life from another perspective, there are still a lot of things I can do. I learn to count my blessing every day, which makes myself a lot happier. We are not fighting with a cold but a severe illness called CANCER. To be able to live is already the biggest blessing.
One more thing, don't be too lazy when you eat. If you can eat by mouth, forget the PEG tube!

Karen stage 4 tonsil cancer diagnosed in 9/01.