My husband just completed 37 radiation treatments and 7 chemo treatments for squamous cell ca of right tonsil with metastisis to one lyph node.. had removal of the lymph node and also tosilectomy Feb. 'o5. He knows in his head that it will be several weeks to feel any improvement, but now spends much of his time anticipating pain, difficulty swallowing. choking etc and is preoccupied with preventing as much as possible with the use of medications. I want him to be comfortable but His judgement is really impaired and we have discussed not making any decisions regarding retirement or signing any documents, checks etc. or taking meds. I have been on a leave from work during the past several weeks of his treatment and was hoping to return to work as my paid time off is coming to an end. I am an RN, which sometimes makes things worse because I feel I should be better able to handle the medical and emotional aspects. Almost 100% of his nutrtion/ hydration is by Peg tube. Last night while I was sleeping he took lots of extra medication and this morning is very confused. He becomes very angry and emotional when we try to discuss this. I guess I'm just venting but am feeling very frustrated and am open to all suggestions. Am I being to controlling or overprotective.. HELP@#%%%&