Paula, I have been thinking just what you are saying for the last week. Today just about decided it for me.Yesterday afternoon, we got our family Doc to round up some IV fluids for us and my DIL [RN] hooked him up, then taught me how to change the bags and remove the cath at the end . The liquids perked him up and he felt better for about 5 hrs., then he had 2 small seizures early this am. I could only hold him until they quit and we spent about 30 min. on the floor before I could get him back in bed. I was on my way to call 911 and again, he begged me not to. To quote him "I do not want to die in a hospital". So I think that I will see about having a Home Health nurse come here so that he can stay at home. In his mind, the hospital represents, tubes, constant probing, noise, etc., etc. and I think he is past that stage. He has known for a while that his cancer is not curable, and he knows that his condition is worsening. The selfish part of me wants him to continue to fight, but I know that is not fair to him. I called his sister in Minnesota today and suggested that she might want to come down and spend some time with him- she's arriving Monday. We'll take it one day at a time from there. Thank you for being in my corner! Amy


CGtoJohn:SCC Flr of Mouth.Dx 3\05. Surg.4\05.T3NOMO.IMRTx30. Recur Dx 1\06.Surg 2\06. Chemo: 4 Cycles of Carbo\Taxol:on Erbitux for 7 mo. Lost our battle 2-23-07- But not the will to fight this disease

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