I can totally relate to the scared feeling about our parents. Some days, I just wonder if I can handle watching all this.

Cisplatin REALLY kicked Moms butt. I find my self crying like a little baby at times..never around Mom. I know she needs my strength! And like you said Shawna, yes, I'm aware we all go sometime too but this hasn't made it any easier. I say my prayers and count blessings every day. It it SO hard to see the person who always stood by you regress into such a weak stage. I never have enjoyed rollercoaster rides and this one has been at high speed.

Mom is only 67 and I'm not willing to let her go without a fight. I will respect her wishes if she tells me she just can't take the treatment no longer but I don't see that happening. She is such a fighter.

She had a blood infusion yesterday due to her count (mainly HGB) being too low. And here we are this moring getting ready for the 1 hour drive to get rad. Through my prayers and this site, I continue to find the strength I need to take each day as it comes.

Bless you all!
Dee