Contributing Member (25+ posts) Joined: Jul 2005 Posts: 28 | I can totally relate to the scared feeling about our parents. Some days, I just wonder if I can handle watching all this.
Cisplatin REALLY kicked Moms butt. I find my self crying like a little baby at times..never around Mom. I know she needs my strength! And like you said Shawna, yes, I'm aware we all go sometime too but this hasn't made it any easier. I say my prayers and count blessings every day. It it SO hard to see the person who always stood by you regress into such a weak stage. I never have enjoyed rollercoaster rides and this one has been at high speed.
Mom is only 67 and I'm not willing to let her go without a fight. I will respect her wishes if she tells me she just can't take the treatment no longer but I don't see that happening. She is such a fighter.
She had a blood infusion yesterday due to her count (mainly HGB) being too low. And here we are this moring getting ready for the 1 hour drive to get rad. Through my prayers and this site, I continue to find the strength I need to take each day as it comes.
Bless you all! Dee
Caretaker of Mom with Unresectable stage IV SCCHN, T1-3,T4..No,N1,N2-3. IMRT daily treatment starting 8/24/05. Erbitux every week starting 8/10/05 and Cisplantin every 3 weeks times 3. Diagnoised 7/5/05 -passed and in peace now on 10/1/05
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